'Be strong because I am not going to give a good news', said
my dad from the other side of the phone.
I gripped my phone tighter waiting for him to give me the not so good
news, I assumed!
'He is dead' he said quietly after a long pause.
My heart was thumping and I could hear every beat of it loud
and clear. There are few things in life you don't want to believe. You just
hope that you wake up the next day and everything is back to what it used to
be. These are times you wish your life remains that boring, monotonous one that
you have hated most of the time. But reality always stands right next to you by
your bed and slaps you as soon as you wake up.
Last year I was going through one of the disastrous phases
of my life around this time. Someone very close to my heart, someone who taught
me what is love rather how to love boundlessly left this world. He was killed
in accident ruthlessly and seconds before that he was talking to me. A best friend,
a caretaker, someone I looked upto after my father, someone who made me feel
secure after him. He gave me love when I needed it the most, he gave me his
shoulder when I wanted one to lean onto. A wonderful singer and a guitarist. Someone who
taught how to live a carefree life and how enjoy the little things of life and to
overlook the worst in a person. He taught me how to cook :) He was almost like
my mother!
Everytime I cry I get reminded of what you always tell me, 'Be brave and strong. You are a brave girl. Just know that there is always good in bad. Your good is about to come. You will pass this. I know you will. So smile, because you look so beautiful when you smile.'
Everytime I cry I get reminded of what you always tell me, 'Be brave and strong. You are a brave girl. Just know that there is always good in bad. Your good is about to come. You will pass this. I know you will. So smile, because you look so beautiful when you smile.'
Days flew so fast that I cannot believe that I pushed a year
without his presence in this world.
My dear,
I know you are safe and happy in heaven. I just want you to
know that you will always be loved and missed. You will always have a special
place in my heart.
You are greatly missed.
Thanks to my friends who were with me during this
time. I would have shattered if not for you guys! Thank you. You guys are
always there when I turn around for help. Love you all :)
Touching! I'm sure he is at a much better place :)
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DeleteI'm sorry Gayathri about your loss. Don't know what to say other than quote a few words which I wrote once in similar circumstances hoping to offer some solace to a friend who was grieving over the loss of her dear one . I hope my words had brought her some comfort as I hope they will to you.
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I'm drawn to guess,
Something I see amiss
Where she smiles
But something else she cries
A dozen expressions
Mesmeric dimensions
She wears that lovely smirk
Though something makes her shirk
I'll seize this chance
To humbly sing to her life's balance
It offers never, anything with ease
Nor does it intend everlasting peace
It will toss you around
Like a futile toy found
But in that lies the secret -
Life's most riveting test
When it makes you remember
It seals that memory forever
When it makes you cry
You know that you are far from lie
When it causes a fear deep
It wants to strengthen your belief
When it leads you through miseries galore
It cements the glory of your character
Though I lack in intellect
To tell you an explanation perfect
Why it splits us from ones
Those who are dear to our hands
All we can hope is that they're delivered
To some heaven where peace is forever
And we continue to live our life
And call it a gift despite being torn by strife
For those who leave, watch our scars
From distant spaces bet'n the stars
They know our hurt and count our tears
They'd never want us to be stuck here
Instead, they'd say, with love
'Cherish me, smile don't sob
Whenever you think of our days
A joy you must feel like the warm sunrays
It's lovely Anupam! Thank you for that !
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