I have been meaning to write to you for quite sometime. I apologize for ignoring you every now and then while I was caught up with various other things that were unimportant yet seemed so important at that moment. I remember you sitting in a corner yearning for me to come back to you, to hold you in my hand, to relieve you from the hold of the mark. The first time we met it was a small library at the end of my locality. The smell of old papers was so addictive. I sat there every evening travelling from one world to another, knowing great people to those who did not exist but I lived among them watching them laugh and cry, break hearts and conquer the world. I felt empty when you weren’t around me. Such is our relationship. We have come a long way from what we used to be. It is not easy to leave you behind for the guilt with kill me and separation will rip my soul apart.
When I was returning home today I decided that it is going to be just you and me. I will spend all the time I have with you – Just you and me in a room, the lamp, the glasses, the artificial cooling and the words. I did. I have already spent 3 hours with you and the world seems so surreal now. When our eyes locked the world was oblivious. You seduce and take me to places so deep and dark, profound and enlightening. You taught me how to love and play with words. You taught me how to write in a way that will make people fall in love with my words. Everything seems to heal the moment I reach home and take you in my hand.
When you are with me I walk on a thin line which I always slip and fall into a world so magnificent. I meet different people and get to know about the lives they lived. When my friends tell me that I am an Alice in wonderland I blame you because you were the one who taught me about fairylands. I want to have a huge room filled with you. To float in your scent, to swim in your words, to travel worlds with you and get lost in your tales , to cherish your presence and feel ecstatic every minute will be a dream come true.
You are a part of my life. You are a part of me. I am what I am today because of you. I make new friends because of you. I talk to the men I like because I know you. No matter where I go, I will always come back to you. You never make me feel alone and you always make me feel special and eternally grateful to you for that. I love you and I will never stop loving you.
A person who is doped in your love and never wants to recover!